Saturday, September 30, 2006

एक साल बाद


ना जाने क्यों आज एक साल के बाद,
याद आ रहा है मुझे इतनी शिद्दत के साथ, 
वो स्कूल जहां गुजारे मैंने इतने दिन ।

याद आ रहा है बहुत सा सामान, 
जो छोड़ आया था मैं वहां, 
जिनमें शामिल था वो तीसरा बेंच ।

एक स्टूल कंप्यूटर प्रिंटर के आगे रखा, 
बरामदे की ओर खुलने वाली एक खिड़की,
जिस-से आने वाले हर एक विद्यार्थी का,
जायजा लेती थी मेरी नजर ।

कोई दिलकश सा नाम जो हम
ज़ीने में लगे आईने पर भाप जमा लिखते थे ।
मुड़े हुए गीले फिल्टर पेपर जो 
मैंने डस्टबिन के पास फेंक दिए थे ।

ओस की वो बूंदें जो हर सुबह
हरी हरी घास पर सजी पाती थीं ।

चाक तो चूरा जो शामपट्ट के नीचे
इकट्ठा हो जाता था जब मैडम लिखती थी ।

कुछ रंगीन चॉक टुकड़े जो हम
जान बूझकर नीचे गिरा दिया करते थे ।

पुस्तकालय में अंग्रेजी की अलमारी में
रखी वो धूल भरी किताब,
जिस पर लिखा था 'रोमियो एंड जूलियट' ।

वो रंग बिरंगे स्कार्फ 
जो मैडम बांधकर आती थी ।

सर्दियों में बालों पर जमी ओस, जो
पानी बन धीरे धीरे जब टपकता था तो
कुछ गोरे चेहरों के होंठ गुलाबी हो जाते थे ।

अब तक सर की वो एनक, जो वो
हर व्याख्यान के बाद उतारते थे, 
अपनी सी लगती थी ।

स्कूल के किसी कोने से उठता उस आग का धुंआ, जो
ठिठुरती ठंड से बचाने के लिए चपरासी जलाते थे ।

वो कागज के रंगीन टुकड़े, 
जिन से सजाई थी हमने अपनी क्लास ।

और सबसे बढ़कर उस जादुई घंटी की आवाज़, 
जो यूं तो रोज़ खुश कर देती थी, 
पर आखरी बार
न जाने क्यों
भरी धूप में भी आँखें नम छोड़ गयी थी ।

हाँ, ये सब सामान मेरा है ।

सारा नहीं तो थोड़ा थोड़ा,
बस एक एक कतरा सबका
बटोर कर ला दो मुझे ।

आज मुझे ये सब याद आ रहा है,
एक साल बाद,
बड़ी शिद्दत के साथ ।

Sunday, August 06, 2006

a hand full of sand

time comes, time goes
leaving a dust of thoughts on our minds
some part of this dust is of gold
make you remember the happy and
winning days of yours.
some part is of silver, make you remember
the love of the people around you
and how much they care.
some part of the dust is of iron, an iron ladder made of
the hardwork and sweat,
climbing which you make yourself unique

and some part is of sand, pure earthen sand
which don’t make you remember, rather
get diffused into and becomes an inseparable part of you

you are one of the persons, who are the
sand part of my dust...

sometimes i really miss you.

Sunday, July 02, 2006

Silence Myself

Life came to a standstill
Just dark before, just dark behind
Just dark below, just dark upside
Trying hard to see myself
There are lights far behind me
But receding away

Who is receding away, me or lights?
Don’t know; DON’T WANT TO KNOW
But what is before me
NO! There is nothing
I don’t see anybody
If nobody is there, whose scream is this?
Scream, I have n’t heard any
Have you?

Pure silence is here
Silence in (my) voice
Silence in my ears
Silence in my mind
Silence in my breast

Silence in my touch
Silence in my breath
Silence in my eyes
Silence in my tears

Silence, silence, silence is every where

OH! Now I know
The screams can be of silence
‘cause only silence is here
Stop screaming, PLEASE STOP THIS HORRIBLE SCREEM
Can’t bare I it anymore
Stop please; please stop

Whom I am asking?
Nobody is here but me
Stop screaming myself
Silence Myself

Sunday, June 18, 2006

varsha

is jhulasti dhup mein
gahare andhere koop1 mein
sakht2 garm bejaan chattaano mein
khandar viraan pade makano mein

nadiya ke bichhude pade kinaron par
sadion se ujade in bazaaron mein
tute hue (makadi ke) jaalon mein
dararon3 se bhare taalon4 mein

kyun tum baar-baar aa jati ho
kyun tum bhul jati ho ki tumhara aana
us varsha ki yaad dilata hai
jo ek preyasi5 ban mujh se ruth gayi hai

tumhare daaman ki shitalta, mujhe is sahara mein
mrigtrishna6 ka aabhas karati hai

main paani par laharaate uske aksh7 ka pichha karte karte thak chuka hun
is-se pahle ki, is tapte surya ki parchand dhup se pinghal, mein is ret mein ret kho jaaun

tum use bula kar
mere is bujhate anjaan shahar ko bacha lo

agar meri fariyaad na bula paaye use
agar vrikshon8 ke badan se chuta lahu na rula paaye use
aur is se pahale ki ret mujhe apne mein mila le

tum is gare9 mein padi katra katra jindgi ko khud hi sukha do
uski yaad mein marne se, tumhari baahon mein dum todana achchha hoga

usne to kabhi palat ke dekha hi nahi
tum kam se kam aa to jaati thi
bawari10 na sahi, aankhe to bhigo hi jaati thi

1 --> well
2 --> hard
3 --> cracks
4 --> natural water pools
5 --> female lover
6 --> mirage
7 --> reflection
8 --> trees
9 --> earthen pot used to fill water
10 --> a big (man made) structure used to store rain water

Thursday, June 15, 2006

Monday, May 29, 2006

hawa

aznabi ban main es anzaan shahar mein kaise aa gaya
main to chala tha dhool batorane
apne se sapno ki, jo yanha se gujarte waqt vo
apne pichhe chhod gaye honge

abhi aatur hi hua tha mera haath
es dhool ko daaman mein bhar lene ko ki
ek parichit sa hawa ka jhoka aaya aur
use mujhse duur kar gaya

tanik bhi krodh na tha mere man mein
us hawa ke jhoke ke liye
jis-mein khusbu hain apanepan kee
jis-mein thandak hai us aam ki chhanv kee
jiske niche hum sara din khela karte the

vo laga mujhe us hawa ke jhoke samaan
jis-mein gaharaai hai gaanv ke puraane talab kee
jis-mein chanchalta hai us titalee kee
jisko pakadane ke liye hum ghanto but1 bane rahte the

tum vo hawa ho, jiska nikat se nikalna maatr2
mastisk3 ke chitr-patal4 par anginat5
smritiyon6 kee punawarti7 kara deta hai

vo hawa ho tum, jo jab gaanv kee gori ke chehare se
pallu hatati hai to uski abodh, nischhal, hiranyamayee aankhe
anzaan bhay8 se jhuk jati hain

vo purvai ho tum jiske liye gaanv ke log
tak-taki laga kar dekhate the ki
kab tum unke khalihaano mein khushi lekar aaogee

sab baalak wanha apni patang9 udaane ke liye
tumhari raah dekhate honge
tum es aznabi shahar mein kya karne aa gayi?

tumne to kai aznabiyon ko dekha hoga
kya tum es raah-bhatake musafir ko bhi rasta dikhaogee?
kya tum es aznabi ka es
aznabi shahar mein saath dogi?

1 --> statue
2 --> only
3 --> mind
4 --> canvas
5 --> innumerous
6 --> memories
7 --> recapitulation
8 --> fear
9 --> kite

Monday, May 22, 2006

halo moon

I took these photographs on the clear night of Sept. 18, 2005 with my dsc-p73.

one of the original
one of the digitally enhanced

Aren't they beautiful?

From wikipedia:
Image: Halo around moon
Article: Aura (optics)

Saturday, May 20, 2006

kachha rasta

wo kachha rasta
jo chalta hai, rail ki pataree ke saath

jo yaad dilata hai, un doston ki
jo skool se chhuti ke baad
gale mein haath dal, pairon se dhul udaate the

yaad dilata hai babuji ki, jo shaam ko
theek sade-paanch baje ghar ki chat se dikhai dete the
yaad dilata hai, bade bhaiya ki
jo saikil1 par barsam2 baandh ke laate the

doharata hai vo khushi jo milati hai
rail mein jate logon ko haath hilane se

kachha rasta, jiske kinare pe
baitha hota tha ek amrud3 wala
jo na hota tha pareshan, humare tang karne se

jivit kar deta hai pairon se banai vo lakeeren
jo banti thi, chalti hui buggi4 ke pichhe latakane se

aur kabhi kabhi saath mein yaad aati hai
us sondhi mahak ki, jo udhati hai
halki bauchhar ke baad

1 --> cycle
2 --> green fodder
3 --> guava
4 --> bullock cart

Thursday, May 18, 2006

3 Gals














three girls of different heights
roaming through a street
seizing others hearts tight

with dark eyes
hunting for someone
want to snare birds
for their deadly ransom
sylph, steamy, sophisticated they are
one blink of their eyes is enough for war
for their pray they have no bar
neither age, color, caste, not even, how far they are

they just want to enjoy their riping youth
just as a child enjoys her new suit

kya dafan hai is seene mein

kya kya seene mein dabaye firtae hain
kuchh gham dabaye firtae hain
kuchh thoda kam dabaye firtae hain

aansuo se bhigi raet hai
patharai hasrataen hain
do mutthi raakh hai, kanhi to
kuchh log dolat khaak kiye firtae hain

sarfaroshi liye firtae hain
inkalaab liye firtae hain
liye firtae hain aazaab bajuo main
aur behisab liye firtae hain

khamoshi liye firtae hai
intazaar liye firtae hai
munavwar ho janha sabka
ye fariyaad liye firtae hain

aazaab --> tufaan
munavwar --> roshan

Tuesday, May 16, 2006

tamana-e-hijr

na kar waqt zaya, mujhe samajhane mein
suljha sakta hun kud, vo sawal hun main

maanaa ke kuchh nahi, main duniya ke vaste
sochata hai tu jise din raat, wo khayal hoon main

na karo mujhpe ehsaan, khabar hai sahar mein
chuka chuka hoon itne ke, jayb khali maal hun main

na bhag mere peechhe, yun mund ke aankhain
milne se jiske kushi mile, nahi vo ma'aal hun main

na koshish kar jan-ne ki, khairiyat meri
jab se gaya hai tu, behaal hun main

ma'aal --> result

Friday, May 12, 2006

kuchh kachcha pakka

mujhe mil gaya koi mere dard ko samjhne vala
main dosti apni rakib se kar li hain
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subah karta hun, sham karta hum. din raat ek hi kaam karta hun
yaad kar kar ke din nahi bharta, isliye milne ki fariyaad karta hun
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kuchh to vakhat chahiye jakhm-e-dil ko nasoor banana ke liye
chand roz aur na aaye, to phir aana na padega
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vo aag to kab ki bujh chuki
sirf angar hi baki hai
ab dhuan udhne laga hai
kal shaayad vo bhi na ho
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kya aalm tha kal mahfil main
ye unki yaad hi thi jisne askon ka dariya palko pe tham diya
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mat puchh meri udasi ka sabab
main teri sahar mahkti rakha chahata hun
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apna kya hai bahata hua dariya hai
yaad aaye bhi to mud ke ja nahi sakta
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kon kambakt nind ke aagosh mein jaana chahata hai
hum to sote hai isliye ke unka chera dekhn sake
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sarfaroshi liye firate hain
inkalaab liye firte hain
liye firte hain azaab bajuo main
aur behisab liye firte hain
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mujhe maloom hai dost ke tu sach kah raha hai
per ye kam naseeb dil jhoot sunne ka aadi ho chukka hai
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charag gul kardo sab
ke shama aa rahi hai
koi murda e aashiqe le aaye
ke uski ruh aa rahi hai
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mat jaahir karna asaliyat-e-husan aaine ke saamne
chatak jaayega jaayega kanhi dil rakhta hua agar
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intazaar

ye khamoshi khaye ja rayegi mujhe
ye khamoshi jo mere jahan mein bas gayi hai
sab kuchh khamosh hai
agar kuchh shor hai to, wo tumhari aawaz hai
jo rah rah kar dur se aa rahi hai
agar kuchh sar-sarahat hai to, wo tumhare aas pas hone ka ahsaas hai
lekin ye sirf ahsaas hai

sari kaynaat tut rahi hai
aur main dono hantho se apne aap ko thame hua hun
darr raha hun main bikharne se

bas aur ab, nahi bardaas kar pa raha hun
nahi hota aur intazaar un banho ka
jo mujhe samait lengi apni aagosh mein